Thank you NBC

It makes my Wednesday nights that much better.. When I watch it online..
Oh and Catherine.. I know you're married and all, but maybe this will make up for the fat picture. Haha!

If my scales are right..

You should be able to take this and times it by 5.. the yellow stuff that is.. I'm sure there's some extra muscle in there too, in fact, I can guarantee it.

Workout Playlist

Okay.. so I don't work out this long, but sometimes I need back up songs. My friend reminded me that I hadn't posted my workout playlist so here you go. I'm not going to add links to all the songs, so you'll have to look them up yourselves.

Eye of the Tiger - Survivor
Power - Kanye West
The Show Goes On - Lupe Fiasco
Yeah 3x - Chris Brown
The edge of Glory - Lady Gaga
99 Problems - Jay-Z (I sing along quietly, great breath catcher)
Runaway Baby - Bruno Mars
My Body - Young the Giant ( 4 stars, great song when you're ready to give up)
Gonna Fly Now - Bill Conti
You Make Me Feel - Cobra Starship
Outta Your Mind - Lil Jon and LMFAO
Untouched - The Veronicas (great pace song)
A Kiss with a fist - Florence + the machine
Otis - Jay-Z feat Kayne West
Public Service Announcement - Jay-Z
Sexy and I know it - LMFAO
Without You - David Guetta feat Usher
Show me what you got - Jay-Z
Drop it like it's hot - Snoop Dogg
Super Bass - Nicki Minaj
Lucifer - Jay-Z
It Takes Two - DJ EZ Rock and Rob Bass
Forever - Chris Brown
Lose Control - Missy Elliott feat Ciara
Black Betty - Ram Jam
Womanizer - Britney Spears
Disco Inferno - 50 Cent
Kiss Kiss - Chris Brown feat T-Pain
Dirt of your shoulder - Jay-Z
Crazy in Love - Beyonce
3 - Britney Spears
You're so damn hot - OkGo
Change Clothes - Jay-Z
Fat Bottomed Girls - Queen
Get it poppin' - Fat Joe
Get Over It - OkGo
Lean Back remix - Fat Joe
Lighters - Bad Meets Evil
Lose Yourself - Eminem
My Chick Bad - Ludacris feat Nicki Minaj
Party Rock Anthem - LMFAO
Piece of Me - Britney Spears
Holding out for a Hero - Bonnie Tyler
Heartbreaker - Pat Benetar
Black Sweat - Prince
Eenie Meenie - Justin Bieber feat Sean Kingston
Icky Thump - The White Stripes

So this is 3 hours long.. but you know, sometimes you can't listen to the same thing over and over again.. this gives you some options. Did I forget anything? Oh and I guess I like Jay-Z... hmm..

I may be a bit obsessed

Today is the first time I haven't gone to the gym in 13 days. I took a 4 hour nap instead. And ate 2 cookies and 1/3 of a dunford doughnut. I think I put my system into shock

I taught Relief Society today. I learned again that I personally have nothing to do with the way the lesson is given. I just stand there and the Spirit takes over. I prepared for maybe 2 hours, from midnight to 2am this morning which as everyone know is the optimal time to prepare a lesson. As soon as I started the discussion just took off, everyone participated, sharing thoughts, examples, stories. I had 5 or 6 topics to discuss and we really only covered one. It was great! I love those lesson. Maybe next time I should really try to prepare.

I made some pumpkin chocolate chip muffins for this morning to bribe everyone to get to church on time. Funny thing is that I was late. And apparently so was everyone else. There were 5 sisters when I came in. I wish that we could get more sisters there. It is such a great group and we have a really good time. Anyway.. the muffins.. I found this low-fat recipe and they're actually quite tasty. It calls for 3 cups of sugar, but I only did 2 and it turned out just fine. I think next time I'll add some applesauce to increase the moistness and maybe help it from not sticking to the paper as much. I used the tall Ikea muffin tin and the recipe ended up making 36. So for me these muffins were great, 100 calories each, 2 grams of fat, 2 grams of protein. Excellent! Oh, and I used pumpkin pie seasoning (and doubled it) and extra dark chocolate chips. You should try them.

http://allrecipes.com/Recipe/barbs-pumpkin-chocolate-chip-muffins/detail.aspx

I have my performance evaluation at work on Tuesday. It has been in the back of my mind since it was scheduled last Tuesday. I'm kind of really nervous about it. I haven't done my best work, but it's not necessarily my fault.

Oh and ps. going to the gym everyday really increases your laundry. I went to my sister's house yesterday to watch the BYU game and ended up doing 4 loads of laundry. It was crazy! Now I need to put everything away.. boo!

Enough ramblings for now.

Biggest Loser and then some

Best quote of the night, courtesy of Antone from Biggest loser. "I don't that I'm qualified to deal with Jennifer. I think Jennifer needs like a whole team of doctors. I think we need to call Dr. Phil, Dr. Laura, you know, Dr. Oz and maybe even call Dr. Dre and maybe we can deal with Jennifer at that point. But let me tell you, we're all adults and I'm not about to hold any body's hand and say please come on. Nobody's ignored. You know where the gym is, let's go to work."

I've actually watched every episode so far this season. It's crazy how much weight they lose, but they are spending 8ish hours in the gym every day and have their fridge stocked for them. It still gives me motivation to go to the gym and work my hardest.

Tonight I did the elliptical for a full 30 minutes. I probably didn't push myself as hard as I could have, but the fact that I was able to stay on for that long was nigh unto a miracle. The last time I was on the elliptical I died at 5 minutes. It also helped to have my friend Jen with me. She talked while I worked out. It was fantastic. We then went up and did yoga. I've only done yoga once and it was a pain. The instructor tonight did really simple movements so it was easy for me to follow along. At then end she had us just lay there and stretch. I completely zoned out and came back totally refreshed. Working out with someone is so much better!

Things aren't going great at work. I'm really worried because I feel like everything I'm doing is wrong. I have my annual performance evaluation on Tuesday. I'm glad I have a PT session that night to work out all of my frustrations. I guess if I think so negatively about the evaluation that anything better than what I fear will be a blessing.

A hodge podge of stuff

I know all of my 5 readers were worried that it had been 4 days without a post. I hope you've survived!
Friday was a pretty horrendous day and I was positive it would carry over to today. It was actually a very good day at work. I got a lot of emails out and some scheduling done. I realized tonight that my favorite parts of work is when I'm helping someone. So that is the key for next job. I need to find something that allows me to help people.
I was able to leave work early so that I could drive down to Orem to take a test that I had forgotten about (I'm not really on top of my school work this semester). Anyway, I got down there in good enough time, parked in employee parking in hopes that I would be out before any parking enforcers came, and headed in to take my first test of the semester (I know, go ahead and hate me). It's for an introductory nutrition class that is supposed to be geared towards culinary arts majors. It was the same stuff I've learned since I was in 6th grade and it showed. I did the review yesterday, reading the chapters for the first time, and came out with a 96%. So it was either really really easy, or I'm a genius. I'm gonna go with the latter. Oh and no parking enforcers either so total score!
I made my way back up from Orem after making a quick trip to wal-mart for some more gym clothes (having to do laundry weekly so I can go to the gym in non-stinky clothes was getting old) I picked up my chili and went to fhe. It was a chili cook off. I didn't expect to win, which I didn't, but it was nice to participate and show people what I made. I stuck around for a bit of the comedic act (it was really good, but people weren't really paying attention, I felt sorry for the guy). Actually I started to get a little panicky being in a smallish room with a bunch of people that I didn't know. I'm impressed that I didn't run from the building, screaming my head off. And then I headed to the gym.
I had the best cardio workout. I do my cardio on the recumbent / seated bike. It's easier on my joints and I feel like I can push myself harder than on the treadmill, and it doesn't kick my butt as hard as the elliptical, which I'm working towards. Anyway, I was able to kick it up another notch on the intensity and did a full 60 minutes without stopping and without praying to Kronos to speed up the clock. I was a sweaty mess, but it felt soo good. The stretching spots were all full afterwards so I made a quick getaway so I could make it home before my muscles froze up. Hopefully I was able to stretch in time so I'm not sore for my training session tomorrow.
GI was really concerned on Friday when I weighed myself because I was up a few pounds. I worked extra hard this weekend, even went to the gym on Sunday, trying to drop the weight. Little did I know my hormones had another plan for me. Stupid hormones. I'm pretty proud of myself that I didn't partake in the Banbury Cross doughnuts provided at the mingle at church on Sunday. That was a never before event.
I have to say that these last 6 weeks have been amazing. I feel so much better already. I just wish that I would have done this sooner. And my biggest hope right now is that I can keep it up, don't let the discouragement take seed, and just realize what the potential is. I can't give up. I can't quit. I have to succeed this time. I need this for me.

Thank you again to everyone for all your love and support. It means the world to me me.

I think the endorphins have worn off now, so I'm going to head to bed. Good night blog land :)

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